May 24, 2012

it’s been a long while…

it’s been a while.

December 9, 2010

it beats so fast.

almost too fast.

is this going to cause me problems down the road?

failure of the heart?

it beats to fast.

thump thump thump.

it beats to fast,

when I think of you.

thump thump thump.

see you in the morning.

September 2, 2010

we fight like water buffalo.
and when we stop,
there are just ripples.

how pointless it is to wrap ourselves all up tight,
there isn’t any room to breathe.

lord help us as we close our eyes for sleep.
lord willing we will wake up.
but if not, see you in hell.

before and after,
i will still be the same,
just maybe with some added wear.

False hope.

June 15, 2010

There was that split moment,

and in that moment,

I had a glimmer of hope.

False hope.

Nonetheless, it was a glimmer.

In as quick as a heartbeat,

I would give it all up again.

Isn’t that the definition of insanity?

After all of this, I would do it all over again?

The fact remains that if a time machine did exist, I would hop in, and take it all back.

Erase it from ever being.


As of this moment, I would in fact, give it all up.

All for that false hope.


March 21, 2010

we are youth.

we are out of control.

we are youth.

we are the lost children of men.

we are youth.

all we have is everything.

we are youth.

look up to the stars and be free.

we are youth.


March 21, 2010

I just want to write it all over my body.
I want to scream it from the mountain tops.
Hope, there is nothing else for me to feel.
Hope, that’s all there is left.

baby steps.

March 18, 2010

Her feet are small feet.

Every step is a small step.

The workers are building a strong wall.

A wall with no door.

A wall that touches the stars.

A wall with no door.

Her steps are small steps.

And her wall is a strong wall.

You will rise.

March 18, 2010

Be strong little girl.
Be smart little girl.
Be brave little girl.
For all troubles shall fade away.
You will rise from the bottomless pit
and smile once more.
Be strong.

You can see colors.

February 1, 2010

Through the fog,

You can see colors.
Oh how bright they are.

Your true colors.

In the fog we danced.
In the fog we loved.

Oh how bright they are.
Your true colors.

I’m sorry I’m an idiot.

January 11, 2010

If I could take it all back I would.
Even if for just one moment.